My Testimony

Something must have happened to change my mind about God. I was one of those which satan managed to deceive for a very long time. I grew up as a Roman Catholic, but was never ‘touched’ by the presence of God in this church. At the age of 27 years I got married and converted to Anglican. (If you come to think of it, and what I have experienced, the two churches are one and the same).

One thing which I experienced in both churches is an unknown urge or ‘force’ pushing me out of the church. But I never took any note of it. Over the years I became more and more estranged from the church, and started doubting more and more in the existence of God. Things just started incredibly wrong in my life. Both my wife and I held good jobs, but there was just never any money in house. This caused me to become very envious of others and very materialistic. I tried to look for ways to make more money. This resulted in me developing a disliking to my profession, which have kept food on my table for such a long time.

The more I tried to make money, the more I dragged us into debt. Some of the friends I kept at this time was not very ‘proper’ for a married person, which started form rift between my wife and I. My wife pleaded with me to return to church and looking the mess we were in, I decided to return. By this time I had two little girls who were coming into that very critical spiritual influence stage.

I decided to make a concerted effort to attend church and to try and grow in faith. I attempted to pray, but most of the time the words eluded me, and those words I did find were empty and without any spirit. But I carried on. I became so involved in the church that I was elected treasurer. I arranged fundraising events; I joined the youth program where I attempted to teach the young about God. But there was something missing, in myself and in the church.

I remember sitting in church every Sunday looking up at this Jesus hanging on a cross from the ceiling and wondering ‘when are You getting off that cross. You suppose to be alive. Not this dead deity rotting in eternity. How can I serve You and expect You to help me when You cannot even help yourself? How can You help this sinking world from this cross that is keeping You from us. Is Your Father this ruthless this ruthless that He won`t allow You to be our living Saviour, but a dead deity with no hope of saving Himself?’

That feeling of being pushed out of the church started becoming stronger and stronger. And it all came to a climatic end when I began to see and become part of so much mistrust and faction fighting within the church. This wasn’t God`s house. There cannot be a God because if there was one He would not allow this. From there on I broke all ties with the church and God.

God didn’t exist in my world. Man was to a large extent responsible for his own fate. Everything that happens in our lives, whether good or bad was as a result of our own decisions and paths we took. This world exists purely because of the result of a mixture of events over billions of years. We exist because of the result of natural selection and evolution. This world will come to an end as a result of some kind of cataclysmic disaster as those seen on the National Geographic channel.  These rules now explained my existence and not some sort of higher power which played us like pawns in a chess game.

I developed a strong believe in the ability of man to control his own destiny. Books and DVDs like the Secret and Power living became my alpha and omega. Man was in control of it all. He could persuade the universe in such a manner that all that he desires are automatically conveyed to him. Pantheism became my middle name. New age theology became my bible. And evolution my religion. Everything could be powered by the energy of the universe and man is a god on his own.

I began researching this like the power of angels, the existence of aliens, the might and control of groups like the freemasons and the Knights Templers, and how they controlled the world. I wanted to be one. God was a myth and these guys knew it. They scorned and laughed at our ignorance, and I wanted the knowledge they had.

I researched and saw how they could be involved in almost all presidential assassinations across the globe. How they planned and organised the 911 disaster, and how they exercised their power to cause all major banks to crash at the same time. This was awesome power and I wanted only a small fraction of it. I became selfish and even more materialistic. My family was of no importance to me anymore. I was preparing to be a god.

During this time my wife decided to join friends of ours at their church, the Seventh-Day Adventist Church, as I had no interest in God anymore. They started teaching her in the ways of Christ. They also started showing her DVDs on the way satan has deceived the world. My wife saw the urgency in why I needed to look at these movies. She brought a copy of one them home and asked if would watch it. I said yes, and put it in the cupboard where it started collecting dust. I wasn’t interested in anything churchy.

A month went past and I had already forgotten about the existence of the DVD. My friends, together with my wife decided to confront me and force me to watch the DVD. Out of mere respect to my wife and friends I consented to watching the movie. The movies name was ‘Closer Than You Think’  by an evangelist named Mark Woodman. It had two parts with each part divided into two sections. And it was the updated version of his DVD. I watched and watched, and couldn’t stop. Everything I had researched in previous years. Everything that I was planning to become a part of revealed its true nature through this one DVD.

Could I really have been this blind all these years? How was it possible that I didn’t know these things? Why has the church that I attended all these years never told me what was happening? Can the Holy Bible really be true and not just an over rated fictional novel? Is my Christ really alive? How could satan so easily cause me to believe that he was just an urban legend? How could I so nearly throw away my salvation and a chance to be with my creator?

I came to one conclusion:

 MY GOD EXISTS AND HE LOVES ME. HE SENT HIS ONLY BEGOTTEN SON, JESUS CHRIST, TO BECOME A LIVING SACRIFICE FOR MY SINS SO THAT I MY BE WITH HIM AT HIS RIGHT HAND ON MY THRONE AS A CHILD OF GOD THE WAY IT WAS MEANT TO BE SINCE CREATION.

And satan nearly took it all away.

The Emergency Plan - Activated

Man fell and all of creation watched. Satan had started his assault on Christ by attacking the ones He loved the most. But, God had a plan. A plan which  existed the moment man was created. A plan which was activated the moment Adam sinned.

A sacrifice had to be made – a blood sacrifice. Death was experienced for the first time in the garden of Eden. The blood of an innocent had to be spilled to atone for the sin of man. “Unto Adam also and to his wife did the LORD God make coats of skins, and clothed them”Gen.3:21.

Where do you think these skins came from?  Do you think they appeared out of thin air?

No! An innocent animal had to be sacrificed so that man can be cleaned.

Who do you think had to kill this animal? God? No. The sinner Adam himself.

“let him offer a male without blemish: he shall offer it of his own voluntary will at the door of the tabernacle of the congregation before the LORD.

And he shall put his hand upon the head of the burnt offering; and it shall be accepted for him to make atonement for him.

And he shall kill the bullock before the LORD:...” Lev.1:3-5.

So the first blood was shed IN the HOLY of HOLIES. In the presence of God.  In the Garden of Eden. Man was evicted from Eden and had to start his perilous journey back to God. Satan and his angels would do anything to make sure that we get lost in body and soul. He would make sure that man forgot its roots. He would make sure that man forgot his rightful inheritance. He would make sure that man forgot that he was created to be at the right hand of God.

MAN WAS LOST. Or so it seemed.

The battle began in Heaven

God created man. Ever since then satan has tried his best through the ages to make us think that God is a myth. By introducing evolution satan has in many ways destroyed the Holy Bible for many souls out there. How can anyone possibly believe the rest of the Bible if you can`t believe that God created the earth in 6 literal days and then rested on the seventh day. If God did not create as the Bible says, then does He exist?

You should remember that a war started in heaven between God and satan. The reason for the war was worship. Satan was defeated in heaven and cast down to the earth where he turned his attentions to man, and in so doing, corrupted man causing the fall of the first Adam, placing a wall between God and man.
But God foresaw what would happen to man, that is why at creation already He had an emergency plan, and when Adam fell, the plan kicked in.

Nations were born, ages past and prophets prophesied  on the coming of a Saviour that would break down that wall created by sin and lead us back to the MOST HOLY.
Jesus Christ entered this world sinless. Even though satan had the guts to tempt Jesus, our Christ remained pure. And by this as it is written, just as the first Adam sinned and brought death to us all, so shall we all have eternal life by the ransom paid through the sacrifice of the Second Adam. This made satan hate Christ and man even more. He had to destroy the idea of God and his salvation plan in man, and by so doing think of attempting to destroy God.

First satan had to get rid of God`s church. In steps the anti-christ on the scene disguised as a woman of Christ (we know her name). The dragon gave her her power and for over a thousand years she managed to murder more than 50 million of the saints.
Now that most of God`s witnesses were destroyed, satan`s  second phase in his devious plan kicked into action. He sent out a mesh heap of false doctrines, each one so deceitfully truthful, you would not know the real one from the fake. The only way to protect yourself was to study your Bible, and using it as a measuring stick, filtering out all the fake doctrines.But part two of phase two in satan`s plan was to destroy the measuring stick by putting doubt in man`s mind on the infallibility of God`s Word.

How? Evolution. IF GOD DID NOT CREATE THE EARTH , THEN GOD DOES NOT EXIST. And what do we have to live for if there is not a God? What hope do we have if the Jesus has always been just a story? How can we value life if we are the  result of the arrangement and re-arrangement of atoms and molecules through millions and millions of years of natural selection? Are we killing so easily because we have come to believe that our existence is  a result of the law of  ' survival of the fittest'? Do we really only work and then die? Is man therefore really in control of his own destiny?